It's almost as if things are sort of coming back online. The withdrawals are still wicked, as are the cravings. But two days of teaching 130 high school math students didn't drive me back to lighting up. So that's something, eh?
One thing is, it's getting boring. You know I think I started smoking because I'm frikkin' hyper. I pace around a lot. I'm wired, man! Cigs were like an accessory for being essentially a human squirrel. So now I've already been up against that bored feeling. Like now what?
On the other hand, this is of course the evil whispering devil on my shoulder. Surely just because you're bored that means it's an excellent idea to GET CANCER.
Nobody ever said addiction was rational.
To bed, 120 hours with nothing but air and Phoenix AZ crud in my lungs....
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This is going to seem hackneyed and irritating, but maybe that moment where you're bored is the moment to sit at the piano. I don't know. Don't listen to me. It's not like I sit down and play/compose when I'm bored. I play video games or waste my time on the internet. Whatever.
And maybe, dear squirrel, this is why I dreampt last night that you were Fox Mulder and that I, as Agent Scully, was buying for you a $5K piano that had three intervals for every one on a standard piano (i.e., instead of white-black-white, there would be white-black-white-black-white). And the piano seller warned me that you'd already been by and looked at the piano and decided not to get it because you thought it would just sit around the house collecting dust and being depressing, like your possum cages (?!? dreams are weird); but I was *determined* to buy you this piano. It was HUGE, like a salad bar, and it had colored plastic tabs almost like cheesy organ stops. And because of all the keys, there were three levels of keyboard.
So I still maintain we should set up your drums, not least so you don't have to drum on the dining table with the silverware while the cat watches you with mild interest.
Good Luck. Here's some reading material for when you next get bored. http://research.chicagogsb.edu/economy/research/articles/41.pdf
You go Peter. You get your non-smoking on.
I hope you're not giving anymore of your money to Reynolds American Inc.
What self-obsessed drivel! So you were dumb enough to smoke for many years. Why should the rest of us, who were smart enough not to pick up a fag, be tortured with your detox story?
Non Cigarettes made the difference for my Wife, and myself! Anyone who doesn't understand the addiction just shouldn't read this stuff (last comment). Keep us updated Peter! I am such an advocate of these things I am linking to similar blogs on my own blog, which is how I found yours. :-)
My hope is that the FDA does not stay involved with non cigarettes. I think they might be better if regulated, BUT I don't want the pharmaceutical companies becoming the only game in town. Things are just fine the way they are.
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